THE STORY OF US: FIND THE GOOD PROJECT

WHAT IT IS: The 'Find the good project' is my attempt to put what's good in my life in the forefront. When I get too stuck on what's hard in my life I tend to forget what's actually going well at the same time. To participate you can either write or write & photo about something in your life that makes you feel very fortunate. If you'd like to go the write & photo route use hashtag: #findthegood on instagram. You're welcome to also keep it private. The Evernote app works very well for both photo & text. If you'd like to simply write what's good, you can use the March journal pages in your Story of Us book, a notebook, or a word program.

MY 'FIND THE GOOD' PROJECT

3/1/17 - I remain sane if I keep a schedule. Naptime is the part of my schedule that everything else is planned around. It's time of day that I don't let anyone interfere with. If there is naptime I get my break. If I get my break I am a mentally balanced happy mom. If Leo sleeps during Kate's naptime & Anthony's rest time, I get to work at my desk. There has not been 1 day since he was here that he has not slept during this time. For me this is the ultimate 'good' thing.

SLEEPING LEO

SLEEPING LEO

3/2/17 - Things are getting back to normal. Only one time did Kate get her feelings hurt today. My goodness that felt good. I can handle that. After feeding Leo, I put him in the swing and we had a morning where she was her sweet happy playful little self. I haven't seen this side of her in 2 months. It made me so happy to see it today! 

3/3/17 - I got myself in the frame!!! This is something that's been so big in my head that I just simply haven't tried it! A photo challenge given by Heather Robinson, who I admire so much, got me in the picture! It's a starting point! I'm so excited to see where this can go!

3/4/17 -A day with Leo. The older 3 are at Grandma Chris's. Which means a day that is free and clear to work! Quality time with this little guy lasts as long as a feeding & about a half an hour after. He is such an easy going little snoozer. I am so thankful for this!

3/5/17 - Luke taking this picture! To me this is one of the greatest gifts he can give me. An image that celebrates our life and the relationship that I have with our kids.

3/6/17 - Something good: The love my kids have for each other. They have us they have each other.

03/07/17 Our life right now, a beautiful, organized, mess. I am worn out and a bit brow beaten, but feeling victorious today. 6 years and 8 monthsish ago, I can remember having a particularly low day. I was about to have my first night alone with you Lucy. You were one month old. I was scared out of my mind. I remember sitting at mother's day brunch and trying to hold it together in front of everyone when I realized your dad was going to start working nights again. I excused myself to the bathroom so I could cry in private. I didn't believe I could make it through that night, with a new baby, by myself.
I've got to tell you I'm proud of myself. I'm proud of today. Today, you & Anthony were home sick and I held the house together. There was breakfast, and vitamin refusals, I got my grades submitted. 45 minute meltdowns from Kate. Anthony fell down the stairs. Leo needed to be nursed. Lunch. An accusation of having bad manners. Naptime. Rest time. A clogged toilet. An attempt at a self portrait. Taxes. Dinner. And I held it together. It wasn't perfect, but we made it through the day, and that's something I'm very proud of.

03/08/17 - Today, I came down with a flu/mastitis?? combo. Something good: I had help when I needed it. I felt really crappy & I didn't have to muscle through when I wasn't up to it.

03/09/17 -  Something good: In another jumbled day, with more pain I had Kathy Dietrich, a lactation consultant who has been ridiculously helpful to me with Leo, call me from her home to let me know how to take care of my blocked ducts. I asked for help & again received it. 

03/10/17 - So many good things. I have a place to go when I need a break & to recharge my batteries. This place is full of inspiration and interesting light to practice with. I'm taking a class that guides me to this new light to learn. I have a camera that lets me express myself through its body & lens. I have a wonderful father-in-law who helps me & my helpful husband pack up the kids when it's time to go.

Our Story: Things are changing!

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The very independent lady didn't want any help with her pants :)

It’s amazing how change happens so seamlessly with little ones unless you’re watching for it, you don’t always notice it happening. It wasn’t that long ago I wished for a vacuum to be an extension of my arm because our floors were constantly covered with food and I had to vacuum after every meal. It’s one of those things you have this mild desperate aggravating hopeless feeling that you will be vacuuming all of the time forever. It’s never going to end. And now sitting here writing this, I realize I only vacuuma few times a week. Being the crappy housekeeper I am, I’m sure it really could use more than that,  but I’m no longer stepping on sticky noodles, or wet bananas, that make the arm extension essential.
My biggest challenge right now as a mom that’s transitioning from 3 to 4 children is the change. It hasn’t happened yet, but knowing how this goes, I feel it coming in my bones. My youngest Kate has been my baby for 2 years now. When the baby comes she’s going to look two feet taller. Her feelings are going to get hurt by this new tiny little person, and I know the heart break I’ll feel because of this. I’m not going to be able to get her what she needs whenever she needs, which is really something I need to work on anyway! I don’t want to raise a demanding little diva. Though I know so much love is being added to our family, I know the transition is hard for little ones.
Change & growth endlessly equally challenge me & inspire me. Kate & I have had this routine for months. It involves me singing to her and rocking her, plunking her in her crib, and some form of kisses and nigh nights. It used to be more elaborate. It wasn’t that long ago that I rocked her and sang to her over and over, and then we needed several kisses through the bars of the crib before I said good night. At this point, there was a lot more space on my lap, and she’d spread her small square very weathered purplish blanky on my belly and lean in and we’d snuggle. It was this really tender beautiful thing that I would have paid the big bucks to have photoed, just so I could remember this time. In this time she was my shadow, everything I did, she wanted to do. This was September/October. Then came October/November, and me getting ready for my holiday open house and her developing her bond with her dad. There was wrestling and often he’d be her preferred mode of transport to bed. It always hurts a little to not be their only one, but it also brought an inkling of freedom. I think the need of our routine began becoming less to her.  Now we’re in November/December & she thinks her older sister is the bomb diggity. She wants to do whatever she’s doing. And although there are still parts of our beautiful sleep routine there, there’s less of it. And now she’s moving into a phase where she’s very independent. There’s still the need for me of course. But when I get up stairs to put her to bed. She’s already in the rocking chair and asserting “Kate Rock”. I’ve got to scoop her up and tell her it’s time for her & I to rock. This change that you don’t see happening but is shaping them and revealing who they are is my inspiration for writing our life down. It’s the reason, I break out my camera daily. All of the beauty , change, and growth of our everyday continues to flow& happen whether I capture it or not. The only difference is that I lose something if I don’t.